I do not write to you often. I am here and you are there . I have yet to write a jot compared to all that you have written to me on paper and heart. But I begin. I begin to tell you what I am doing and thinking and well…….today feeling , about you Father.
It seems , Father , when I am busy and crowds are around, that you are far away. I cannot see you. I think I have seen your brightness but, not you. And I have felt you. Like Today , Father, I heard how you came in a crowd and there was someone like me there in that crowd, and when they read about this person , I felt you brush against me . This one, Just like me , he could not see, but too knew you were there. Knew you were near, like I know you are near.
Maybe you are more than near. You could be here , you are very big. You are infinitely large, how could you not be near? But you do surprise us here when you move through the crowds like you moved today. Like today when you came among us , as us, but not us… brushing against us, we feel you though we see you not.
We are all blind , though not all my brothers and sisters know it . I know that I am blind especially when you are walking .. when you are “passing by”. I know I cannot see but only sense with something beyond my senses . Is it the hem of your robe moving like the waves of your ocean? I do not know but I know , I feel you when I cannot see you! Or am I only loudly hearing the folks ask ‘ what is happening” among us . Or the ones that whisper to announce “son of David” . Is the hearing the hint that you are among us ? . Father , What is it that causes me to look at what I cannot see… and to believe in what I cannot see.. As a brother asked today “Do i believe to see or do I see to believe?“
Father i only know this. I know that when you “passed by” today in a simple way, I squinted to see you. But because I could not see you, I shouted “Jesus son of David have pity on me”. And then, then ,I felt you stop, i felt you bend your bigness to small . Calling me and Bending down to me you ask “what do you want me to do for you child?”
And I now know what to ask for “ oh Father, in the son, by the spirit, please oh please …will you let me see?”
“The greater and more persistent your confidence in God, the more abundantly you will receive all that you ask.” Albert the Great 1260
Luke 18 ….Jesus stopped and ordered that he be brought to him; and when he came near, Jesus asked him, “What do you want me to do for you?” He replied, “Lord, please let me see.” Jesus told him, “Have sight; your faith has saved you.” He immediately received his sight and followed him, giving glory to God. When they saw this, all the people gave praise to God.